Uhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! I am so discouraged. I have gained back 2 lbs because for the past two weeks I have been waaaaaay too lazy with my food choices. I have still be tracking my calories, but sometimes I forget all the things I eat in the day and sometimes I just neglect to write them down. That is not a good habit to get into or even to admit. For the first month I was doing so well with calorie tracking and being sure to be more active in my life. But then the weather turned chilly and grey and I just didn't want to go outside. I have kind of gotten into a hermit type of mentality and I REALLY need to get out of that. This week there are lots of things that are starting up and that is a good thing.
Building habits is fine, but for me it takes more than the 21 days or the 6 weeks or whatever anyone else says, because it is so easy for me to slip back into laziness. I suppose that it is the same for a smoker or an alcoholic... I mean, my grandpa has been sober for 40 years, but if he has a drink he will fall back into the habit of drinking. Now, part of that is chemical response, but part of it is habit. I think laziness is just as much an addiction as anything else. The only difference is that my laziness is a physical response, not a chemical one. I feel better about everything in my life when I am being disciplined, but the ease of laziness is... Well... Easier. Being disciplined is hard work... Like really hard work... And it is a choice... Daily!!!! I have to choose to follow through with doing the dishes each night, I need to choose to go for a walk 3 times a week and I need to choose to eat only what my body needs and not what my mouth or emotions want. It is hard.
That is why I am so disappointed about gaining back those 2 lbs. It isn't about the weight, but about the fact that my lack of discipline is what caused those calories to come back. My inability to say no to dessert or no to a second helping (just because it tastes good.)
So, today is a new day, tomorrow will be a new day. And so will the next... And the next... Choosing each day to make those healthy lifestyle choices. Doing like I tell my daughters, and making good choices. That is what life is. A series of choices mixed with a bunch or random happenstance... So join with me in taking control of what we CAN control and make good choices!!!
There is something about birthday's I think. I'd been doing really well with counting before my last one, and had lost some weight, but it was almost like a deadline I didn't even realise in my mind, because as soon as it had past, some of my drive faded, and I started to slack off. I'm still not really back in that mode yet. I'm sure you'll be able to get there faster, but in the mean time, don't be too hard on yourself. You'll figure it out and keep heading in the right direction.
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