I have a WHOLE new appreciation for ALL single moms. Whether they are full time (single women) or part time (husbands gone for days at a time), those women have got their S#*t together.
These last few days Sean had been laid up in recovery. No big deal, but I had NO idea how much he actually did here when he was home until he couldn't do it any more. I mean, I knew that he didn't just sit around when he got home, but he sure picked up a lot of slack. Mostly child related slack too. He does a lot of child wrangling, carrying and playing. He also takes out the garbage, does the BBQ and just all around helps out with little tasks so I don't have to get up and do them all. But a lot of the things that he does he hasn't been able to do, and I am EXHAUSTED!!! It seems ridiculous, but I have surely taken my darling husband for granted!! I couldn't imagine having to do this by myself, every day, plus have to work full time... No thank you!!!!
There are times when I talk to my mom and think that she had it a little easier than me. I mean, she worked full time and I was at daycare... She didn't have to deal with kids all day long and clean up after us all day long and fight with us all day long.... But dang!!!! How wrong I have been. If I have ever thought that anyone had it easy, i am so sorry. In all reality, I am the one who has it easy. Yes I have my daily struggles and deal with things that not all moms have to deal with, but I wouldn't change it for the world.
Just last week I found out that there is a job available in the field that I am looking to build a career in, but Sean and I talked about it, and having to get the girls to daycare or school in the mornings, and then get to my job, work all day, go get the girls, make supper, clean up supper, get the girls bathed and off to bed and then still have some kind of energy to spend time with my husband does not fit into our lifestyle right now. And let me tell you... I am so thankful that I have the freedom to say, "no, I think I'll wait a little longer before I start working". And that is all because my husband does a wonderful job providing for our family. I am so thankful that I get to be home with my girls and raise them, and watch them grow. I am so thankful for this next year when I get to take Jenni to her first day of kindergarten and I get to spend at least two days a week with just Maria and get to know who she is as an individual.
So, for anyone that I have complained about staying home, I am sorry. To all those working moms out there, you are awesome and, again if I have complained to you, I am sorry. To all those single moms out there, you are absolutely AMAZING!!!!!! I am sorry that you have to do this alone, and on those days you just feel like you can't do it anymore, I will be praying for you.
And lastly, I need to say thank you and I AM SO SORRY!!!! To my mom, because she did all three stages of mom-hood and she did her absolute best and I have not always recognized that. She was a single mom until I was 6 and then she was a stay at home mom for a while and then she was a working mom for another long while. Mom, you are awesome, and thank you for raising me to be the mama I am today!!!!
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